hey ppls!   i would justt like to thank everybody who remembered my birthday ..... it actually kinda made cry..... bec only my filipno friends who remembered my birthday and greeted me...... none of my friends here didn't it have theclue, i had to tell them...... sure they felt bad.... but you know sometimes that's my way of knowing who really are my true and close friends...... but then again i couldn't blame them..... bec we've been all busy..... but i don't know.....it made me really sad ..... bec lately i've been really left out by them so i don't know...watever... neways, thanks to everybody again who remembered. thank you for being my true friends! (and yeah, jods thanks for the text, its really cool of u to do dat!)

hey ya'll... i f#*k!n  hate Valentines! oh it s*cks! ...

bec..there's nobody to spend it with....

I hate my life.... 

oh by the way, i found this poem that i wrote in 8th grade for my english class while i was cleaning out my file today..check it out (its pretty dark, though... and sorry for the bad grammar...) :

R.I.P.                                                                                                                                                     By: Marie Blair Aviles

What a beautiful day, but not for him.

I always hear his hurtful hymn.

His suffering, his suffering, is he gonna die?

Please say no, its not yet the time.

I went to the hospital, I went to his room.

Asking him if his doing good.

He says "yes..", he says "no..", he just says "I don't know."

He ask me " Am I gonna die?

Please say yes I want some rest"

Then I told him "No, you're not, you gonna be fine."

Eventhough I know that his gonna die.

I asked him " Are you scared?"

He  just says " I don't know."

I asked him why he doesn't know.

His reason is where he's gonna go...,

Is it in heaven or hell, no one knows.

 A deafing silent came to the room as he fell asleep.

While me watching him preparing to leave.

Minute by minute, my heart is raising.

And a strong wind came blowing the curtain.

As I shut the window, I heard a long beep…

 and he's gone.

I burst into tears, I kiss his hand, and as i say...

“Goodbye my friend, rest in peace."

aahhh!!!.... I'M so please with myself! .... becuz I won 2nd place @ coon rapids speech meet! ...although that doesn't really count becuz they take it easy on you.. it was an easy win but then again they did narrow it down who had the most points in my category that's why i won second place...

my parents were impress even though i said it was no big deal bec. the judges weren't that "judgemental"..... although they still had comments....

neways, my friend's mini concert was fun.... his band surely gotten really better!..... although i was a bit distracted bec people were moshing!

hhmmm? what else.....oh, audition for the spring musical would be comin up... i don't even know why i bother to audition sometimes.... cuz i already know whose goin to get casted....and i'm not one of 'em...well, wat i mean is that im goin to be one of the chorus girls....again....oh well!

i guess dats for this week , i'll try to write again soon, INGATS ya'all!

hey everybody! well so relieved that im done with my tests this week......ahhhh ! although i git my results from my ap gov test in the mltp choice section...aarrgh i did so bad ! and i studied so hard ....

neways im just excited to go to my friend's concert ucz i haven't seen them play for a long time, i hope its fun!

then speech tournament (meet) again this saturday, oh by the way did really bad on the last meet bec. i suck! so over and done with it...

oh to nini, i did read your recent blog about the conversation...oh my gosh  i cried! oh, i was so like " oy ang lungkot naman..." then "...tanga naman ni paolo!" (hehehehe) but i'm glad everything is fine and ok now! and at least you're cool and happy that now its all cleared up! (hopefully.... unless...nevermind!)

neways chikas (or ne chikos reading this...) thats it for now.... !

hey people! im really sorry , especially to jules, that i haven't written in here for so long! i've been really busy with work and school having exams evry other week and for the fact that last week was our one-act play and i was the asst. director and stage manager...also i'm leavin town this weekend  bec i have a speech meet at Marshall, so i'm preparing myself for that, too

if you're askin for more exciting social life, umm.. u might ask again later, cuz im a bit in a lowdown right now.... my hands are quite full of things to do! gee, let's list them starting this coming thursday....

1/29- quiz on pre-cal/trig and AP stats..6pm-10 have work and a meeting..pack for marshall---1/30- 7am in school then 3hr drive to marshall.--1/31-coming home from marshall---2/1 celebrate dad's b-day then homework (right...)--- 2/2-speech mtg...officer's meeting...work?..study for human physiology tests & other homework---2/3-human phys test... speech practice...study for AP gov. tests&homework---2/4-AP gov test... theatre mtg...work?

so... so far not that complicated ....YET! hopefully not!... aoh yea and here's another thing.... we have the winter week coming up on the week of valentines day and our school winter dance is gonna be based on valentines day! how depressing!.... and also the thursday before valentines, we, girls, have to wear something pink that would mean that we're single!..... gees! talk about public humiliation!.... then again we have a choice so... boo ya! ...i aint goin participate!... i mean seriously wats the point of doing that.... what? don't tell me its way of knowin that you dont have a date and you're a sore loser for not havin one..... aarrghh!.... wat total phooey! 

well that's my rant for this week.... hopefully i get time again to update this ..... INGATS! also belated HAPPY B-DAY to Nini ...sorry if im a month delayed , i didnt able to have the time to greet...sorrry! well peace out! ; p